I have found myself struggling the words to express what I want to say. Usually they flow from me like the most loose tongued poetry, like a drunkard asked to tell his feelings on a stand. But I am not sure words can say what I want to say, I am not sure that words can express what I want to say. It is Valentine’s Day in Brazil, and I am very happy to be dating a girl whom I celebrate that with. In fact I am very happy to be in love with that girl, and to have her love me in return. Alas though, all the poetry escapes me, because my feelings, my love seems overwhelming, especially when it comes to putting it on a paper. There are not enough ‘I love you’s there are not enough ‘forever’s, to really express how much she means to me, or in what way she has impacted my life. We are fastly approaching a year since she became my princess, and my life has changed dramatically. She has helped me in so many ways, to become the man that I have always aspired to me. She has never hesitated to give me that extra push no matter how badly I may not want to hear it. She has loved me good enough to be tough with me when I need it most, and soft and gentle, praise me when I need that most. She has (and continues) to put up with me when I am such a fool, or so childish with her. And honestly, I am more often than I would like to admit. Sometimes I am not really sure why she’s still with me, or still in my life, but I am so thankful that she is. I have no idea what I would do without her, because, she has become such a part of my life, that if she left, I feel so strongly that I would have nothing left. No light, no hope in my life anymore. All of the strength would leave my bones with her, because she is my strength. She has saved me, and pulled me up many times, without even knowing it. Saved me from fates I had placed on myself long before she even met me. And I have never been happier. It might sound crazy to some that I am so young, and so sure, but I know that she is the love of my life. There has never been, and will never be anyone else, there could never be. I am very sure that I was made to love her, with all of my heart, and oh god do I. I never wanted marriage before I met her, I never wanted kids, I never wanted to watch romantic comedies, or movies with Ryan Gosling. But now, I want all of those things, and with her.
But I am so much happier because of it. I spend most of my days feeling like I live in the sweetest dream. There is no amount of money in the world that I would accept to be woken from it. She is my everything, and I love her, with my entire being. Though, I make mistakes, and though I know sometimes I am wrong. She makes me want to be right, she makes me want to be a better man. And I will spend the rest of my life, trying my best to make her feel like she lives in that sweet dream too. I want to do everything I can, to help her reach her dreams and her goals, and hold her hand while she accomplishes them. I want to be the man so proud, holding her hand, when she says ‘I did it’.
I have never wanted anything in my life, half as much as I want this life with her.
And I am so thankful to have finally found her.
Dom, my perfect princess, I love you, happy Valentine’s day. <3
