I’m just changing so much lately, my opinions, my thoughts, what matters in my life and what I could care less about. I’ve finally accepted that I am human, as silly as that sounds. I have a small issue accepting weakness and emotion in myself as well as others. But sometimes when you analyze someone you really admire or someone similar in personality to you, you see that they have the same flaws as you. And in that moment you see how beautiful the human condition can be, for once you don’t dwell on all the negative
I stopped making wishes a long time ago, became too cynical for hopes and dreams when I watched death. I realized I was the master of my own fate and if I were miserable it was my own fault.
It just took me so much longer than that to realize I deserved happiness.
So in a way I’m not so upset I’m changing, because I’ve always wanted to be, think, and act the way of the person I’m slowly becoming.
Perhaps I just still don’t think I deserve it. Or maybe I know I’m too weak to handle it.